sometimes I think about all I am and I remember I’m nothing but a hunk of meat piloted by gray matter
The fact that we exist actually really surprises me
I believe there’s actual life out there, like aliens ya know? If we’re truly the only ones in this vast confusing universe, then really, to me it looks like we’re never going to make an impact.
The fact that someone still believes in my stupid ass and thinks I can go anywhere is really surprising and heartwarming.
I feel like I’ve drifted away from a lot of people recently. Mostly my friends from Ponychan, like the RP group people, Order of the Insomniacs, and even the story thread people. That makes me feel really bad because they’re all super cool people and I don’t want to lose them, yet I can never make a conversation with them and I’m too awkward to ask for their steam/skype.
I’ve actually done drugs, I’ve done both marijuana and acid.
I’ve also cut myself once or twice, and I was actually thinking of slitting my own throat just to end it all.
I feel if I pass on to the next life nobody will really care.
There’s not a lot of people so really, who wants to listen to my problems and shit? Who really fucking cares?
I feel like if I tell someone my problems I end up bothering them, or taking up their time, or maybe that person doesn’t like me
I have a constant dreadful feeling where everyone doesn’t like me, they’re just putting up with my stupid shit.
I might go out and buy some Acid after I post this. I feel like shit.
The fact that I’m homosexual, an atheist, and hate most of my family is gonna be really hard to come out. Especially with my dad.
I secretly hope my brother knows I like cartoon horses, so I can stop it from being a secret.
I see all these blogs that are League of Legends related (turtlepatternpillowcase for example) and I really wanna play League with them but I’m too awkward and shy to say it because I feel I might do bad