tfw you want to work hard to attract new people from every place imaginable and see this site grow to be an active community with something for every interest.
tfw you want to see /pony/ bustle with reviews of the latest episode and speculation over the next
tfw you want to see /chat/ and /fic/ back, with the interest to sustain them
tfw you want to come to /oat/ or /anon/ and be surprised by the stuff people come up with rather then bored by bunch of threads you've seen a dozen times.
tfw you want to see people running streams get more then a couple dedicated followers
tfw you want to see event and activity organizers struggling to keep up with interest rather then struggling to drum it up.
tfw people don't want more users because they're afraid they'll demand the site culture be changed to suit them
tfw they don't trust you to just not cede to those demands
tfw those who shared your vision have been worn down by this attitude to the point they're becoming jaded
tfw it doesn't matter as interest in the show is waning all over
tfw this site was made too late to reach its full potential
tfw it will wither and die
tfw there's nothing you can do to stop it
tfw you don't want to get off the ride